Why do i love smoking

There are lots of things that people love to hate, but if there could be a list of such things i am sure cigarette would come on the top of it.And yes people have their reasons for hating the cigarette- it is harmful not only to the person who smokes but to the people around him, for some a cigareete being an addiction is also a sign of weaknes, while some people just hate to see a loved one kill themself softly.
I do not defend smoking, i do not condone it either, i will just say why i like smoking . First some confessions, yes i started smoking because i thought it would make me more stylish and more of a rough guy. That is one of the most common reasons why young guys start smoking.There is also a strange kind of peer pressure on you. A peer pressure which requires you to smoke to belong,which asks you to smoke to take the step forward towards being a man. Yes i was weak enough to succumb to this pressure. Mind you i do not say that this is why all the guys start smoking. Just mentioning the reasons why i started smoking. And i hated it at first, the awful smell, a kind of nausea, still  so as not to hinder my progress towards manhood i continued smoking and defended myself when anyone accused me of not smoking properly.As i was taking my tentative steps towards smoking i started living outside of the hostel(i was around the second year of my college then) and it is perhaps then that i started loving the cigarette and for reasons entirely different than why i had started smoking.
My house was about half an hour walk away from the college and most days i came alone. During those long walks back i started developing a companionship with the cigarette and it became a silent friend. And ever since then whenever i am lonely or scared or anxious i smoke a cigarette.
Cigarette is part of some of my best college memories- the long talks that i had with a friend while roaming around the streetsof vellore at night(who did not smoke then), the drinking parties, the hanging out at 4 a.m with friends at the tea shop or just sitting at mahesh anna's shop and chatting.It also was the first of many debates that eventually led to an amazing friendship.
And for these reasons i will always love smoking, even if i quit it sometime because it was the silent companion through some of the best moments of my life and even though those moments may have passed away, whenever i want to think about those moments again i can always light up a cigarette and reminiscence about those innocent times and also always have someone who was there with me then, my cigarette.
I would just like to leave you with some lines from ayn rand's Atlas Shrugged:

"I like cigarettes. . . . I like to think of fire held in a man‘s hand. Fire, a dangerous force, tamed at his fingertips. I often wonder about the hours when a man sits alone, watching the smoke of a cigarette, thinking. I wonder what great things have come from such hours. When a man thinks, there is a spot of fire alive in his mind--and it is proper that he should have the burning point of a cigarette as his own expression."

The first post

well here goes, since this was my first post i thought i will write about something which is very close to my heart: football. disgressing a little from the topic(already) i would like to say that i do not believe in God. The whole concept of a superior being and his controlling our lives doesnt hold much water with me. But if theres any thing which will ever make me believe in god, fold my hands in thankfulness and look with my eyes closed towards the skies it will be football. You may think this is a freakonomics type of assertion, well in the freakonomics way let me prove that to you. Well for all those people who do not follow football, uefa champions league is a club tournament, where top teams from all around europe compete with each other. This season's final was between chelsea and manchester united two teams who had battled with each other for the english league crown as well. Both had men at helm who were a sharp contrast of each other. Sir alex ferguson had just won his 10th premier league title but it was always his dream to add to the single european triumph way back in 1999(another god proving moment). On the other hand there was Avram grant who had been handed the job mid season and inspite of a lot of reasons had got chelsea where his much more charismatic predecessor had not been able to get(the champions league final). While alex ferguson was loved by his fans avram grant was despised by his club fans. So these two teams met and battled for 120 minutes  and the match went down to that cruel separator of teams- Penalty shoot out. The first two penalties went in from each side. Up stepped the arrogant but vastly talented Christiano ronaldo who had scored 41 goals in the season and had added to that in the current game , and his penalty was saved. All the other guys scored their goals and at 4-4 terry had the chance to win chelsea the game.A lil background on john terry. He is a ferocious defender and personalises all the qualities which had brought chelsea to this stage. He had got a shoulder fracture 10 days before the final but there was nothing which could keep him away from here. He had also saved a certain goal by ryan giggs in extra time. And he is also called Mr. Chelsea. He stepped up, ran to take up the penalty and then slipped and missed his penalty kick. Let me confess i am a manchester united fan but still if i could have had anyone to win the champions league for chelsea i would have picked terry. Manchester united went on to win the match. As soon as Nicolas anelka's penalty was saved, the arrogant ronaldo started crying his heart out, and mr chelsea was inconsolable.And alex ferguson had won another european cup when it was raining.Ryan giggs who on that day had broken sir bobby charlton's record of 758 appearances for manu had scored the winning penalty Only a higher being could have written such a script. Probability of all of this happening on the same day would be miniscule.Perhaps more days of these and i will accept his existence.
On an ending note i would like to say last night John terry scored for England in a friendly against USA.It was almost as if God was saying "there is redemption for all of us".