to you, from me

photo by :Kr.b

it seems a lifetime ago since you were with me. a lot has changed since then. you. me. the world around us. with some letters you painted the memories of yesteryears in such a way that i dont quite recognise them any more. I was in denial for a long time, i was a car wreck. i still am. I have morphed into a stranger. People dont change, their intrepretations of yesterday and themselves change. the happiest days of my life are now my most tragic days. i know you would say, that siddharth you were always this way.Perhaps thats true. perhaps like i dont know you,you dont know me. You were the only girl i said i love you to. it may not have meant anything to you but now, today at this moment it means everything to me.

So i wrote this for you.only for you. i love you and at this moment i dont deserve to say this to you but its true. You were my scarlett, my dominique ,my dagny taggart and my jenny.and you always will be. I hope that you are able to love again soon and able to forget the dreadful chapter in your life story that i was. i wouldnt wish it on anyone.

I knew you would want me to get over you and get on with my life. I am trying. Thanks to my friends today i have hope in my life. i am able to dream again. but i still think of you whenever i listen to coming back to life, whenever i am happy or whenever i am sad. Whenever i feel lonely, whenever i talk to dipen. whenever i watch a lot like love( i know, i know you hated the movie :-))

Maybe some day you'll be able to smile when you think of me and i will be able to stop crying when i think of you. For my sake i hope both of these days arrive soon.